Showing posts with label Travel Nursing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Travel Nursing. Show all posts

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Canada D'eh!

To celebrate Canada Day, my occasional housemates Kara and Stephen suggested we go for a hike in our neck of the woods. I thought that was a dandy idea. My knee has been doing well since I've stopped running/biking for the past 7 weeks so hiking has been an option again. On Tuesday Kara and I did a mini hike up Teapot and my knee was fine so we gassed up the 4X4 and headed off to Mt. Cheam on July 1st.

Super crazy logging road to the trail head, but the nice thing was not having to slog through the miles and miles of dense forest to start getting some views. Still plenty of snow around in the alpine we enjoyed amazing views of the Fraser Valley, the Fraser River, Mt. Baker and even Harrison Lake from the summit. On the way up we came across a couple in their 70's on their way down, the husband had a giant Canadian flag tied to his pack like a cape and they were all smiles and 'HAPPY CANADA DAY!!!' as they passed.

I feel like I have been trying to memorize all of these moments like stills in my mind for those times when I am homesick in Ireland. I am wanting to hold on to these last few days in the lower mainland, cherish them. My dogsitting/housesitting all week in Whistler has been a bittersweet time as I love the people, food, landscape, and recreation that surrounds me here. It is a perfect reminder of all of the things I will be giving up for the next, oh, decade. Wish I knew what propelled this desire to keep moving forward. Sometimes it doesn't seem like I am moving forward, just constantly in a new direction.


Monday, May 18, 2009

Day Off

I'm not going to lie. This past week and a half I've felt just a teansy bit lonely. It's been a while since I've gone on a travel contract and I've kind of forgotten what it is like.

My life has consisted of work and working out. Both of these are good things but neither take away from the loneliness that creeps in around the edges. Everyone I work with (with the exception of a couple social dropouts) has been very welcoming and warm. But people have their own lives and they are busy going 32 directions in them. I have pretty much 2 directions right now...across the street to work or down the street to the gym. Travel nurses like myself come and go, I probably wouldn't go out of my way to ask an agency nurse over to dinner or out for a walk with my dog either.

I've been lucky to have great roommates here at the hospital supplied housing, but we're all working long and/or opposite shifts and rarely see each other. I don't know, it's a weird life.

I just feel like I am always one little step out of sync with the world around me...from going back to school last year during pre req hell, to working casually in Whistler, to agency work, volunteer trip, now here...Not having any real roots makes no place home and no sanctuary I can really sink into. I am quite looking forward to staying put for a little while once I get to Ireland, carving out a little space for myself in the world. Don't get me wrong, I am happy! Life is good! I mean, really....who can complain when they get to watch bald eagles circling above as they eat their breakfast?


(View this morning at breakfast...sorry about the window reflection...)

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Who Walk Among Us


I was tired this morning when my alarm went off at 0445h. I had to drive to the city to catch a 0750h flight and therefore didn't want to leave the house later than 0515h.

I hit the 'dismiss' option instead of 'snooze' on my phone and fell back asleep. I awoke just after five and raced around the house gathering up the last of my belongings, showering, and grabbing some toast for the road. Ugh! I realized I needed gas as well. Of course, when I am running late...

Zoomed into the quiet station and put 15$ in only to find I had locked my keys in my car.

Aghghg! Remembered my hatchback was unlocked. Sigh, ok, I can handle looking like an idiot to the gas station attendant for a few minutes vs missing my flight. Finally I got on the road, but I was pretty frazzled.

Going to a new contract always makes me a bit edgy...What will the staff be like? What is the housing going to be like? Is my roomie going to be a psycho-chain-smoking-television-blaring-messy-chews-with-mouth-open-racist? Will there be internet? Will there be soymilk in town? Will there be a gym in town?

So when I arrived at the airport I was not in the mood for the baggage lady to tell me my bag was 3 kilos overweight. I fought the urge to make a sarcastic remark about all of us probably being 3 kilos overweight. So there I was, the girl who has to open her suitcase for all to see, randomly pulling hefty objects out and stuffing them into a plastic bag (classy). Thankfully I didn't send a shower of tampons into the air or accidentally fling a pair of underwear at a baggage handler.

I was cursing Air Canada and the woman who kept calling me "ma'am".

Oh how I hate flying Air Canada.

And I hate all the little invasions of my personal space when I fly.

Take off my shoes? Undo my belt? Open my top button? Take out my toiletries bag? Really? Is this all really necessary? Sigh. Remember the good old days when you could fly with a leatherman on your belt and have toothpaste in your carry-on?

I was muttering to myself about my severe dislike for all-things-air-travel as the dude in front of me in the security line was completely faffing with this ridiculously large bouquet of flowers.

Finally got to the gate and sat down for a few minutes before having to board.

My flight arrived on the island and we then waited for about 45 minutes for a shuttle to take us across the inlet on a ferry to the town. Yawwnnnnnnnn. Sleepy. Hungry. Cranky.

A taxi stopped to give me a ride to the hospital. The driver was a middle aged Vietnamese man, very pleasant and upbeat, waving and smiling at people as we drove through town. He laughed when I asked him if he knew where I was staying,

"25 years in a 4 mile radius town you know where everything is!"

Right. Good point.

So I asked him how he had ended up here of all random places in the country to be, it didn't seem like a place that would jump out at someone immigrating to Canada.

He said, "have you heard of the boat people?"

I scanned my thoughts wondering if admitting that would seem racist, I had assumed that term was only used in a derogatory sense.

"Ummm yeah...you mean people that escaped Vietnam and came on boats to North America?"

"Yes, that was me and my sister. I was 16, she was 14. Our boat ran out of gas in international waters and it took 7 days for a US coast guard to find us, there were 49 of us on the boat. They brought us to their ship and people were given the choice of moving to Canada or US. I chose Canada and was sent here, neither my sister or I spoke a word of English. I started out washing dishes in a restaurant, getting the waitresses to teach me English. Now I have the good life."

I asked him if anyone died on his voyage. He told me that they had been 2 days without food and water when they were rescued, that two children had almost died but ended up surviving. I told him he should write a book about his life, his bravery, his story. He said, "no, that journey brings up too many sad memories". And that was that, he popped the trunk and was soon on his way.

I've thought about our conversation all afternoon. Here was this man who survived a very dangerous voyage to a completely unknown land. When he arrived he had no money, no education, and couldn't speak the language.

And here was I. Cranky at having to suffer the inconveniences of air travel. I wasn't leaving my family behind on a dangerous journey where I'd arrive and not know how I'd get food in my belly or a roof over my head.

I am glad this man held a mirror up to my irritations of the day. I am glad I got to see how my day of travel compares to some of the travels that have been endured by the people around me. How truly fortunate I am in my comfortable life. People who will never whisper a word of it to me, stories I will never know. I like being reminded that sometimes I should stop to consider what chain of events have brought us each to the place we're at. That perhaps I could never know in a thousand lifetimes the experiences of others. And how thankful I should be that my 'humiliations' only include locking my keys in the car and having to take off my shoes to show a hole in my sock.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Headin' for the Himalayas!

Please forgive the double post. I don't know who reads what anymore...

Sent off the deposit today for a month long volunteering trip to the Indian Himalayas. I have to be in Delhi to meet the group on Oct 2nd. I am pretty EXCITED! And a little scared.

I've been longing to go back to India and Nepal since I was there 9 years ago. Ack! 9 years ago? Really??? Oh my. Now I feel old. Or maybe now I realize how young I was....so that was why my mother was having a nervous breakdown for the entire 7 months that I was gone!

They are very clear on the application forms and waivers that one has to be in "top physical shape" as we must get to the villages/settlements on foot, it's not a cushy land-rover-to-destination-trip. One of the passes is almost 14 000ft! Somehow I think it'll be a little more rugged than the last time I was close to that elevation...

And I figure if I am going to be in that neck of the woods, and spend the money and carbon footprint getting there...well....heck maybe I should stick around and head up to Nepal for a few weeks for some more trekking...any takers??

Training starts tomorrow.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Wayward Human

So I've been out here on the West Coast for a week now, starting to feel somewhat settled in. Getting back to work has been good and bad. It is nice to use my brain and skills in the health care world again...but I can't lie...nursing has reached it's expiry date for me.

Don't get me wrong, I still love patient care, and working in the ER but the whole politic of cajoling doctors is just beginning to be too much. I have to make a case to give a pain med to someone, or order a chest x-ray on a patient that I think has heart failure instead of liver failure (he did have heart failure), or suggest further sedation while he's reducing a spiral tib fib fracture...I am just tired of it. I can't see spending the next 20 years of my life trying to not come across as pushy, trying to make it seem like it's their idea, and trying to be an advocate for my patients at the same time. Not exactly the formula for a fulfilling career.

Well, for now it'll do.

MCAT studying is going OK. Though I wish I had a few more months to do it.

Still don't know where to go, where to live now.

I am hoping some lightening bolt hits me with the answer.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Ta Ta For Now

It is absolutely pouring outside. I am packing up my car to drive to the coast for a couple (few?) weeks and realizing that this time I didn't even get a chance to unpack my duffel completely before having to fill it up again.

I do chuckle at the few creature comforts I bring with me everywhere. Like an old lady-I have my tempurpedic pillow, like an OCD insomniac a fan for white noise. Got my 4 pairs of running shoes, about 11 books I hope to get through, my favorite tank top that I sleep in, a thermos full of (and several boxes of ) my favorite tea, cue cards, study guides...

I am feeling a bit down. I spent some time on Cute Overload and Fail Blog to cheer me up. And then I gave my head a shake. (Not because I was wasting time on blogs when I should have been studying...) No, I gave my head a shake because though everything feels so uncertain I know I have a lot to be thankful for.

All of my friends here are so good to me. James and Verena have essentially been feeding and watering me since I came home on Monday, when I got home from their place there was a tin foil package and a note tucked into my door. It was at that exact moment I knew I lived in an amazing community.

It was late, and I was coming home to a dark house. A bit sad and lonely and there was this little food offering. I smiled and thought, hmmm....I wonder who this came from? Because it could have been so many people! I wasn't thinking 'oh , that must be so-and-so dropping off food again' I was running through all my peeps here, Sylvia? Ann Marie? Mandy? Anna? Alice?

A thoughtful gesture from Alice, in fact, which showed me the thoughtful nature of everyone in our group. It's nice to feel loved.

Which is part of the reason why it will be so hard to leave R-town.

For now I am working a 2 week contract out west, then hoping to find a little place to hide for the next month while I cram for the MCAT. After that I have no idea where I will go for work or where I will live. It's a bit overwhelming so I try not to think about it. If housing works out here maybe I will stay, but with the resort here now buying another house is just not possible and the rental market is dismal. I'm too old and in need of my own kitchen for a roommate....so we'll see.

Anna, Verena, and I had a great ride yesterday. My first outing back on the trails and I was definitely feeling the fear as the ride is a bit more eroded, especially around the plank bridges. A few more wee drops to contend with. I am such a wussie for my first few (5, 15, 25) times out on trails each summer. I realized part way through that I had been putting the DEATH grip on my handle bars when negotiating the hills and bridges so I eased up a bit but still felt my legs shaking partly out of fear and partly out of fatigue. Then noticed at the end that I had completely cranked down my front suspension for a town trip a couple of weeks ago. Hence the parasthesia in both my forearms at the end! Whoops. Still a bit zingy today. Got back to the Cozy Cabin to find James had whipped up a pasta carbonara. It was delicious. In our muddied bike attire we enjoyed the last of the white wine from their wedding and a taste of Ravens Wood Zinfandel before heading home for the night.

It's those kind of nights which make this time and place perfect. And make it hard to pull myself away.